surrender

It's only been a month since I started reading this new book. I randomly bought a couple books when Berean Bookstore was out of business.
Here is the title currently reading..."DANGEROUS SURRENDER".
Now who in their right mind would even pick up that book, fully knowing it was going to be a difficult read. AHHH! Only me, and I've spent several days lately reading it.
Here's a few keys:
Will you voluntarily surrender the keys to the kingdom of Me and accept Jesus' dangerous invitation to deny yourself, take up your cross, and follow him? I need to surrender control.
Will you decide to say yes to God, even b/f knowing the full implications of what that yes may mean?(still working on it)
Will you let God "ruin" you forever altering how you relate to other in your life and world? I want to be ready. I want to create space in my heart for hurting people. This is what I'm ready for in my missions trip to Israel in about a month.