I want to Believe

Where have I put my trust? All I need is Christ. All I need is to follow the laws of Christ. There is nothing more that I need but Christ. I feel physically lonely, but the Holy Spirit can give me that trust I need. I look at my life and it's so routine and how I never change the daily schedule. There are no excuses for how I feel. I feel so guilty to even talk about it because I can make choices to change how I feel. But the rejections often forces my energy to fall back to doing nothing. I am listening to your teaching and understanding your grace for me. Only the cross will remove the guilt and shame. I do not want to be weighted down by condemnation. I've been carrying so much for so long, that it's easy to think life is is normal to live weighted down. The truth is apart from the cross, condemnation is normal. There is no condemnation for those in Christ. I am completely free. God is glorified when we believe with all our hearts that those who trust in Christ can never be condemned. Do not doubt Jesus ability to remove all my sins through his sacrifice. I am able to live and walk in grace-motivated obedience. Break down those walls and help me to turn toward your redemption of the blood of Christ. You alone can bless my life. Renew my spirit and cleanse my soul to a pure life; a holy life that pleases your will.
Only at the cross, will I be renewed...at your knees, I fall and ask for your forgiveness.